I feel like Im better,
and sometimes I think I feel worse.
When there's too much time to think about it though,
I can feel my skin crawling.
And I get this insatiable urge to dig just a little deeper.
You know that feeling of restlessness?
It's like you have too much energy burning inside,
And no matter where you direct it,
There's too much burning inside.
I can't rid the feeling as I want to tear my skin off.
It's much too hot, but the air is on and I'm quite cold.
Feels like a firecracker is going off inside of my veins.
Pop pop pop, and I punch the air with a swish swish swish,
but that only makes it worse.
I can hear my heart pounding.
never goin' anywhere
always missing something
can't complain if life is unfair
i have only learned one thing
they say you reap what you sew
i sew intellect and reap ignorance
look through the eyes of my hell
and feel the burning heaven within
my burden is your potential
my playground is your landfill
everything is absurdly backward
and pleasure is too far from me
draggin' round a painful bag of dreams
with a fog of agony around my head
my heart draggin' through the concrete
and a four minute memory of reruns
wondering why you claim to care
when you can't afford to spare your time
perhaps i glimpsed your final dark truth
falling
No point to drink,
No point to smoke,
I'm fine,
No point to drink,
No point to smoke,
I don't think I'm fine,
No point to drink,
No point to smoke,
Ugh fuck it,
Ima drink and Ima smoke,
I'm not ok
Forever Lonely
By Paige Mills
Forever Lonely
Forever Blue
Happiness Only
Began
With
You
There Were Times
When We
Reached
The Sky
And
Looked
Down
On Times
Just
Passing By
For When
You're Young
And
Love is
New
There is
Nothing
You Think
You Can't
Do
We Built
Our Castles
Much
Too Tall
And
Watched
Helplessly
As
They Begen
To Fall
Forever Lonely
Forever Blue
Love
Began
And
Ended
With
Me And You
Written: July 1991
Copyrighted: 2019
Why does he,
Make me feel so bad,
He makes me feel like I can never do enough,
That I'm never enough,
Why am I here?
If I'm not good enough,
Why am I here?
If I don't meet your expectations,
Why am I here?
I don't know anymore,
His actions,
Speak louder,
Than his words
Beat the Drum Skin, Sticks Tap Time by MaggotsX, literature
Literature
Beat the Drum Skin, Sticks Tap Time
Beat the Drum Skin, Sticks Tap Time
Heart, hear it
beats
a drum, beats a metal
clank of sticks in time
thinking like a timpani
ding, thing, kaching
ring like a bell, pell-
-mell, bloody hell
a race of heart, beats
this beat
knows the rap
beat
of wood, round wood
on taut skin
beat
slap, slap, slap
crap like a flap, like a map
tap, tap, tap
beat
clap feet on a pedal
of metal, kicking
leg on taut
skin,
beat
drum, bum, dumb
oh, some more, some more
take four, a score I adore
beat
the sweet meats
beat, beat
sweet greets
beat, beat, beat
sweet meets
beat,
beat,
beats,
O this heart . . .
MaggotsX @ 2019.05.09
Looking at your name,
One last time,
Deleting your number,
I finally did it this time,
I wince to myself,
I've known you for so long,
But I can't deal with these games anymore,
Hopefully I'll get over these scars
Eternity Comes Only Once by sesam-is-open, literature
Literature
Eternity Comes Only Once
...In a dream of eternal youth
with beautiful eyes and unspoken truths,
dancing on a thin thread drawn by Selena
in a blue night when all four winds talking about peace;
...In that unique poem when love
shines more than the Sun God on your ring finger,
weaving lasting hopes on a delicate cobweb
in a white day of the beginning of all beginnings;
...In a cold afternoon of December
with memories which surrounds the Arctic Circle,
melting everlasting snows that floods the time,
paradoxically, leaving behind them the fire whic